Looking at the Monster of Imperfection

strolling with the monster

Over the past month, I have been going through some kind of transformation from within the core of my being, and nothing in my path is safe from the fire. It has been getting to the most deeply buried ideas about love that I have ever consciously accessed. How I have experienced it is a fully interactive arcade of imperfections steadily pointing out to me what I am experiencing is a form of imperfection in my concept of myself. For my part, I have rolled up my sleeves and am breaking a lot of belief structures and OM is in the background of it all. If we are all on the verge of finishing our lessons as a planet, it is important that we finish our lessons as they appear from moment to moment throughout the day. It’s not as if this is the final exam, but we do seem to be entering a period of expectancy, open to the possibility for fractalline tangents to our central sphere of beingness to return in full awareness of love. It feels to me like we have been wandering around in circles and have suddenly realized that all the paths we took were each part of a holographic design leading back to the central point of integration.

I haven’t given much thought about how this transformation is going. I’m really just trying to ride it out. It feels like it wouldn’t matter if I knew, anyway. It’s all going to be just fine. First, though, I have to deal with the reality in front of me, and change what I can to bring myself into alignment with the place my soul is driving at. It is the only thing I have any true control over, the way I choose to respond to my reality. It is the only way I can change anything else, is to change it within myself first. Which means I have to look at it and acknowledge its existence before it dissolves into something else. I have learned this from my son, who says if you look at the monsters, they will disappear. It is sage advice.

I have changed what I can in my environment, moving things around, cutting my hair, and forcing myself to savor a cup of tea for a few minutes every day. I enjoy the change in perspective, and the reality I see through this newly focused lens is showing the imperfections starkly in contrast to the picture that pulsates with life in the background of my awareness. I am seeing the energies of change sweeping through as if doing a final check-in before themselves changing into something completely new and unexpected. And the unexpected is probably the only sure thing we can expect.

Which brings me to a topic that has been much on my mind: expectation. It is the step beyond intention. It is the nail the hammer of intention hits. It is the single point toward which desires end before becoming manifest. It comes at me from all sources, and has positioned itself as the governing concept for this particular time and place. Tell me, what do you expect from life? Could it be the thing you say you expect is merely the thing you want? If you really want to see where you have to change in order to get closer in alignment with peace, look at the things in your present reality that you consider points of imperfection. Look at the reactions you allow, the emotional response you choose to fuel, the words you would use to describe the reality imperfections you experience now. Could it be that those are clues to what you truly expect life to throw at you? I look at my own set of circumstances from this lifetime, and I see that I have always expected, in some form, disappointment. This is a powerful frequency modulator, to recognize the true nature of your own expectations. It is from that point that you can apply the logic of a 5-year-old monster fan to good  measure. Look your imperfect self square in the eye and say, without a moment’s hesitation, with a full breath of air, “You are an aspect of my soul that has come home to be loved. Know you are loved and release the frequency you have held. Become pure encodement of love in the form of light, and return to OM.”

It helps to have a laser blaster handy, for any really stuck energies, so says the monster fan. Noted.

I’m blessed to have so many distractions to focus on. I’m getting extra credit for that thought pattern showing up. These are the things I tell myself to get me through the chaos that is coming with the tide of change. The family dinner is at my table this Christmas, and there is a lot to do to get ready for that. It will be good to have a chance to share with my mother what I have learned from her in the kitchen. The tree is up and decorated, the house getting ready for company, and so much going on with the Renegades and the online community of resonance!


Translations: I’ve been working under the radar and have a few things to announce, in the spirit of disclosure. Karla and James have been translating articles from the Renegades and Anica into Spanish and French, so there is a growing list of pieces in translation. I trust their relationship with the words they are working with, and expect that their efforts will allow more people to find resonance in the messages.

Personal Readings: A few people have asked when I’d be doing personal readings again, so I have decided now’s as good a time as any to offer that service anew.  If you would like to have an insightful and provocative communication regarding your own experience as you are awakening, or whatever, you may want to consider having a reading. You can find some feedback on the home page, and nearly everyone who responds after reading their message tells me that the information unfolds more and more over time, leading to a deeper understanding of the path to integration and wholeness.

Calendar, cards, book, etc.: Just in time (barely) for the holidays, some new offerings at the Pleiadian Soul online store. You’ll find a new cosmically aligned “Christmas” card design, and a stunning wall calendar for 2010. Look for new t-shirt designs based on the artwork, coming soon. There’s also a fun new white oval car sticker to let people know where you’re coming from, with the sign “PL” for Pleiades. And for your friends and family who don’t rely on the Internet for information on What’s Happening Now, consider “Remembrance: Messages for Preparing for Contact”, the Renegades’ collected messages from 2008. It’s available from Lulu.com as a printed book or as a download.

New Facebook Community: I’ve been getting so many new friends on Facebook, I’ve realized it’s time to start a fan page so I can keep my communications straight. I find that I’ve been hesitating posting certain information or starting discussions on my Facebook page because not all of my friends and family are on the same page, so to speak. Starting the fan page opens that door wide, and I’m really looking forward to it coming alive. It’s called “Renegade Operatives”, and you’ll find it here. Please join! There are a lot of great communities on Facebook, and a lot of awareness spreading through its pages.

As always, your donations keep me afloat, and the websites online. Nothing fancy, but the bare minimum for keeping this information flowing. Thank you for supporting the site, and thus supporting the greater awakening of global consciousness. As we prepare for the darkest moon at this darkest time of year, may we carry enough love in our hearts to transform the shadows we meet into the purest essence of light and experience the transformation of love in the core of our being. I wish for you all great blessings and delightful surprises as the light of a new year dawns. Expect miracles, expect love, expect truth. We will not be disappointed.


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Into the Still Point of Nine

Like you, I have been watching the world shudder as the set onstage starts to lose its integrity. Low frequencies are rumbling across the stage as the chorus starts their entrance. I am not talking about extraterrestrials coming to save us; I’m talking about all the people who are waking up, bright-eyed and bushy-tailed, ready to move into a brighter future. Now, I’m not averse to friendly aliens setting foot in the public square, of course. I just want to see those of us on the planet get it together before they do appear for all to see, hear, and interact with. It’s no fun if zombies and sleepwalkers crash the party. So I see what’s coming as the transition from nightmare to wakefulness, something that makes you catch your breath for a minute and calm your heartbeat down. Only then can you really see the morning light.

So I’m watching and I’m seeing a lot of nonsense and bickering and useless criticism being bandied about, and that’s okay with me because they are not such dangerous things. Sticks and stones are another matter. Every time I hear some dim idea about vaccinations and police states and world domination, I visualize these things like a paper-and-cardboard model someone’s put together, and I blow on the toothpicks holding them up. With a holographic intent, such a simple act could be quite useful, when you face some spectre of unpleasantness as a possible development in your path. Unpleasantness is really starting to ooze out of the human psyche on a global level, so there’s a lot of it about. That doesn’t mean it has to stay, it’s just on its way out. It’s always a good idea to use your breath in a cleansing way, to breathe in cosmic light and breathe out the nonsense (I recommend listening to Alaje’s pranayama meditations in his recent videos). Once you get the idea of disassembling some mechanism of fear in your personal experience, you can switch it to another level (kick it up a notch) and holographically use the personal practice to disassemble mechanisms of fear and clear out nonsense on other levels of being… within the family, the tribe, the school, city, the whole world.

Here is a practical application of the science of Nine, right here. When you are focusing your attention to your experience as an embodied soul, you are focusing on the consciousness of One, the reality of you as being. Clear out any misalignment of truth until you feel the single harmonious reverberation of OM, the still point. The still point is Nine, and it exists in all things. This is the point you breathe into and from which you access all of the universe. Start your personal etheric housecleaning here. Then move into the consciousness of Two, the reality of you in relation to Other. There is a tiny still point in the center of the experience of Two. Focus on clearing out any misalignment of energy between you and that which you are in relation to, breathe into that still point, that Nine portal which is in everything. Then keep going, into the consciousness of Three, Four, and so on. The foundation of these types of consciousness can be found here. This is the core of understanding the consciousness of Nine, and understanding Nine — even approaching it — leads to understanding the nature of divinity, by way of perfecting one’s beingness.

That’s how I understand it, anyway.